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UGH!! The sickness has enveloped me. It's wrenching twisting grip has finally taken a hold of me, weaking my will, breaking my pride..oh oh, but my voice sounds totally hot!...

Haven't posted in a while, I have no exuse, and usually I ALWAYS have one. New job, working at the 'Cashroom' in the SLC INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT...what do I do? I process about $70,000 in things called bags. Each 'unit' (restaurant/eating place) has a bag. There are about 120 'bags' floating around, I open them up and count the money inside, then seperate it in it's respective denomination(s). Then I 'bundle' it all down into yet smaller increments, like 4 'sets' of $1's make a 'bundle', and I have to rubberband each of those smaller ones, then put them into yet another bundle of $100, and so on and so forth, same with the $5's, and $10's, etc. Kinda fun actually, I can 'process' pretty fast. Then I have to do a deposit, which is basically taking the left over amount from the bags and taking it to the bank-which is in the Airport for our convenience. A stupid girl quit, which only leaves 4 of us to work in there, that would be ok, if we didn't need any days off. This means that 2 of us have to work by ourselves, which if things go well we only work a 10 hour day. If things go wrong (count's are off, money for the safe doesn't balance) then we work a 12 hour day. This makes me angry cuz I have school, and I like to get good grades, but lately, i've been getting off so late, that I barely have time to do half of my homework, let alone show up for class on time. GRRR. Oh, and my cold seems to have not actually gone away like I thought, it's now back, and I have a fever, and I'm dripping really pretty clear dewlets of snot from my nose that splash on my black sweater....it's actually kinda cute, except when im talking and i have a drip moment.
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    songs from the various muppet movies

HUNG UP

I am blessed, we all know this.

I'm also a big sexy gayfagman. For this reason, I have come into posession to the lyrics ( and full song ) for the new Madonna song called "Hung Up" which goes to radio on October 17th. Enjoy the WORDS.....


Time goes by, so slowly
Time goes by, so slowly
Time goes by, so slowly
Time goes by, so slowly
Time goes by, so slowly
Time goes by, so slowly

Every little thing that you say or do, I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you.
Waitin' for your call baby night and day, I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you.

Time goes by so slowly for those who wait, No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun, I'm caught up, I don't know what to do

Time goes by, so slowly
Time goes by, so slowly
Time goes by, so slowly
I don't know what to do.

Every little thing that you say or do, I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you.
Waitin' for your call baby night and day, I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you.
Every little thing that you say or do, I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you.
Waitin' for your call baby night and day, I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you.

Ring, Ring, Ring, goes the telephone, The lights are on, but there's no one home.
Tick, Tick, Tock, it's a quarter to two, and I'm done, I'm hangin' up on you.

I can't keep on waiting for you.
I know that you're still hesitating.
Don't cry for me, cause I'm flying away.
You'll wake up one day, But it'll be too late.

Every little thing that you say or do, I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you.
Waitin' for your call baby night and day, I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you.
Every little thing that you say or do, I'm hung up, I'm hung up on you.
Waitin' for your call baby night and day, I'm fed up, I'm tired of waiting on you.

* This song samples an ABBA song called "Gimmie, Gimmie, Gimmie ( A man after midnight )
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    Um...what do you think?

GREY

First this,

Cinderella
You are Cinderella you were mistreated by your evil
step sisters and mother but in the end your the
one laughing you are kind nice beautiful and an
animal lover you never do anything without
consulting your mice.


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Ok, so thanks Cinderella.

I found my first grey hair today. I have no idea why it's there..I mean after all, i'm only 23(clears throat, and looks around room to check to see if I know anyone). I figure it must be a result of life stress. I mean my parents only got them in their mid 30's. I maybe have some Tongan in my genes?, we'll never know cause of the situation with my dad bieng adopted. UGH!! This makes me so mad, i of couse had to cut it out. It's just one, but then I haven't had anyone look through my hair. I'm sad now, I need to go put on Steel Magnolias so I can feel even more shitty about myself.

BIG 'OL SIGH...

FATanthony
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    Beautiful Stranger - Madonna

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Hi, ok this is an email that I sent to a friend of mine that I met in the first quarter of school, but after that he moved away. He's straight, and i told him that i liked penises after he left, to which he acted very lovely when hearing that. He has remained a friend...one of the few of the wretched and evil straight men that exist in the world that is actually nice. Anyway....


Hey

Things are ok. I didn't get a tutor in Math I, so I failed it. I'll be behind at the end towards graduation, but only a semester. I am re-taking that class right now, so feel free to login and do the math for me. I'll love you forever and ever. Other than that things are pretty chill. My Intro to programming class is lame at the start, but then gets more fun as the night goes on. Visual Basic is pretty fun actually. My other class, Audio Visual Techniques is wierd. The teacher is really cool, but I dunno, he has a very "university" method of teaching. Say some stuff, then let us loose on the assignment. I mean, after doing the "lesson" he assigns us, I don't turn anything in, and am done by like 9.30pm most times. We had to make this video last night, but it didn't have to be of anything, so we just filmed things. Us outside, us inside. The trees, and the air. we got finished with this at 7.30pm. Then we just sat there. Some people were trying to hook up the camcorder(s) to the computer to make videos. Others like my team were using an analog camcorder from 1980, so we just sat there, and sat there. The teacher wasn't telling us to do anything. Then he said we could do lesson 4, but then after I had been working on it for like 5 mins (literally, 5 mins) he's just like, oh forget lesson 4, and just work on the video. So since I didn't really have a video, we only recorded like 1 min of stuff, we just sat there. I had enough by 9.30, and i left. This class will be a test of my patience I can already tell.

I'm bummed out about something non-school related. So I'm gonna vent to you about it. It has do with gay issues, so If you don't want to read this that's fine....

I dated this guy a while back in Cali. He was a friend of a former boyfriend of mine that I dated way back in 2001. I was looking on match.com in 2004 and found him. We struck up a conversation, and we admitted to each other that while we were with our boyfriends at the time, that we both thought the other was totally hot. Now that both of us were single, we should get together, so we did. We did the whole dinner and a movie thing. We kissed, but that's all. We just took things really slow. We never had sex, I moved before that. He admitted to me that he wanted to get his friends permission to date me because he felt strange about that..you know, dating a friends past boyfriend. I was like dude, it was 3 years ago..whatever. We kinda fell outta touch after that because things started to fall apart in Burbank (LA), and well....you know the rest..i had to move back to utah, blah blah blah.

Back in utah I emailed him, and we've stayed chatty. We talk, then we dont for months. Recently I sent him an email asking how he's been, he's fine blah blah. Then I ask him if he's still single...cause the whole running joke is that when I move back to Cali, we'd like to restart whatever we had. He tells me he's been seeing this Chick. I'm like WTF!!??...why...what's going on here, now granted I do like guys that dont act gay, cause that's a turn off. I like guys who act straight. That seems to mean for some reason that they are bi. I can't date a bisexual. I've tried to have an open mind before, and it's just silly, i don't know who he's sleeping with.

I KNOW we're not together. I KNOW i live in Utah, but I mean, i dont know why it bothers me that he's dating a girl..he says he's just looking for a change. Well if you wanna try something different you try wearing bright red, not girls. I'm just so depressed about it. This is why I've been so distrustful(sp?) of guys lately. This is the longest I've been single. I hate it, but fuck....when things like this come up, it just makes me so bummed out..

Btw, i sent a response back to him. "ok". That's all I said, what more could I say...."well I hope that works out for you".

I know that was long, and painful for you to read, but thanks for listening.

I'll send along your request to Darrell. (I met his wife and kid btw. I'm so much cuter than his wife)

your friend,

FATanthony.
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    For Once in my life -Michael Buble

DANCE AND SING GET UP AND DO YOUR THING....

Saturday, blah blah blah. I am back to working Saturday's at Feature fucks for families. I got a haircut today, YAY!! I look really cute, aside from the fact that I have a face fatter than the back of a cab. I'm eating less, so that's a start..and by less NO I don't mean starving myself to get back to the way I look in that adorable pic of myself you see, but just making smaller my portions. I should also be getting a new gym membership in the next couple of weeks from my Dad. He calls me fat alot. That makes me want to eat more. I thought about suicide the other day, but only how much it would affect the people that actually like me. There are only 3 people that would cry if I died. my mom, my dad, and yani. Maybe I should get out more and meet people. Not while I'm fat though. LOL, just reading what I wrote sounds completely insane, but you see this is how my mind works. UGH!!... I need help.

If anyone knows how to give my LJ a title..(like yours wife) tell me, that would be fun.

from FATcentral...this is FATanthony, signing off.....
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    Top of the world - The Carpenters

MY WORST FEAR REALIZED

Well not so bad actually, some may laugh, others who know me may just roll their eyes.

I have a class on Tuesday's at 5:30pm and it goes until 10:30pm right? Okay, well my thursday class goes from 6-11pm. Okay, but Hi, why did I think that my today class started at 5:30? and now i'm here a whole half an hour early? It's one thing to be early, but to be that early with NOTHING to do is absolutely ridiculous. THAT IS MY WORST FEAR REALIZED. So, now i'll just look at the internet and try to find something interesting to read. My cute teacher from last sememster was sitting next to be, and I still totally wanna make out with him hard. He's married though, and talking about his wife..FUCK!! What a turn off.

BATMAN BEGINS

O MY GOD

U WONT BELIEVE YOUR EYE

BY FAR THE BEST BATMAN MOVIE OF ALL TIME

I WANT TO HAVE HARD ROUGH SEX WITH CHRISTIAN BALE

WHO IS THE GUY THAT PLAYS THE SCARECROW?

I WANT TO HAVE HARD ROUGH SEX WITH CHRISTIAN BALE

BY FAR THE BEST BATMAN OF ALL TIME

U WONT BELIEVE YOUR EYE

O MY GOD
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    White Flag -DIE-DOH!

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HOT
You like the prince charming type.


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WHAT THE FUCK!!! Why do i check out www.billboard.com and find out that MARIAH SCAREY snatched up another #1 single? This time it's "We belong together". WHEN WILL IT STOP!!??? This bitch is completely out of control...HELLLLOOOOO Madonna only has 12....cool your jets turbo. GRR...on a happier note, on the the front page of billboard.com it has a story on Madonna's upcoming new album, and a tentative date when the "RE-Invention" tour will be out on DVD. Life does throw me some good news everyonce in a while. This is just a quick note, as i'll be posting more later.

SPANK u later!!
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    "Amazing" George Michael

26

So what, I'm 26. As usual I spent most of the day in a shitty mood cause I hate the fact that I'm fat (again), an apparent loser, at an equally degrading job. I am going to school...but HI!, I lie to everyone about my real age. I lie because I just thought I'd be something else in life by now. I'd be doing something fun, and exciting. I would be maybe making music professionaly. I would NOT be living with my parents. I was in a shitty mood all day on my birthday. Noone knew it was my birthday. I came home and wanted to cry. I didn't. I opened the present my mommy and daddy got me; AN MP3 player.YAY!! It's really cool, i can hold like 40 songs on it. That was a nice part of the day, and i got a carrot cake..ALL FOR ME. Maybe next year i'll feel better.


Wife- I'll try again to send you my schedule..i tried (and failed ) 3 times the other day, but got one of those "failure to send:DAEMON" type notices. I tried to send to Myway, and Excite, once with an attachment, the other times without. Must have just been a wierd net day. If i cant send again, ill just post it here..

I LOVE EVERYONE!!!

(who am i kidding, only 1 person reads this...LOL HAHAH OMG...GET OUT)
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    Anything Madonna (ya i know)